WELCOME!!
Welcome to samples of my writing showcasing “Eye-locks and Other Fearsome Things.” “Eye-locks” is a Bipolar/Asperger’s memoir in narrative form that describes the triumph of love over mental illness. While not a lesson plan it documents my therapeutic journey to finding love against all odds. Useful for therapists, and for patients with Bipolar Disorder and/or Asperger’s Syndrome. A scholarly, autobiographical case history of my story was the showcase article in vopl. 13 no. 1 of Psychoanalytic Inquiry in 1993.
For the full length narrative non-fictional account click http://www.independentauthornetwork.com/ellen-stockdale-wolfe.html for a short bio, a full description, and to purchase my book.
About MOONSIDE…
Learning to love is an ongoing process and I am writing posts on new lessons learned.
All the original abstract painting is posted to advocate for Bipolar Disorder and Asperger’s Syndrome– for it is those very handicaps that feed my art. The more realistic nature art is dedicated to raising consciousness for animals and the environment. All other art work is purely for your enjoyment.
Finally I have also posted selections from my nature writing and poetry. My nature essays were published in a small paper in upstate New York for a year and a half. The poems have appeared throughout my life, coming and going as they please.
This is an award free blog.
All work on this blog is under copyright and may not be used by anyone, for any purpose, without permission.
MOONSIDE 
Hi there, Ellen. I gave your book a shout-out on my blog today. A week ago I downloaded it to my kindle and I am about 1/2-way through reading it. It’s a good story and well-written. I like the way you’ve woven a tale of your life around mental illness. I imagine that was not an easy job — to put things in a readable order but you have managed to do it. My kindle says I’m 46% into the book and I’m glad I haven’t gotten near the end because when I enjoy a book I don’t want it to end!
I have dozens of journals and I wish I could organize them into a book that explained my journey but the memories are so raw and personal, I just don’t know if I could break it down into a succinctly told story that explains what it has been like living and learning with depression. Your book has inspired me to perhaps save my journals and one day give it a try. I don’t know if this link will be active but it is from my blog and about the feelings I have regarding my journals. http://mydepressionchronicles.wordpress.com/2012/06/22/good-bye-to-my-past-47
–Daylily
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August 22, 2012 at 6:46 PM
I’ve nominated you for the One Lovely Blog Award, Ellen!! Here’s the link: http://bipolarandbreastless.wordpress.com/2012/10/02/a-lovely-award-from-kat/
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October 2, 2012 at 10:03 AM
Dear, dear Kathy,
Thank you so much, Kathy!! You have no idea what this means to me! I am still sick and still in a bad valley of depression. This award picked me up when I was thinking to stop writing, like you felt. Right now, I have to concentrate on getting well to host people and don’t see how I am going to. It is a very important occasion– hubbie’s 60th and it is just a couple we are having but it is going to take all I have to do this. Maybe like you I could postpone the acceptance and fulfillment. I don’t have 15 people but will see what I can do. Thank you ever so much, Kathy. And I am glad you called me a “new friend” because that is how I think of you.
Love,
Ellen
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October 2, 2012 at 3:06 PM
It’s truly my pleasure, Ellen, to pass this along to you!! I, too, received the award when I was so low, so I understand how much it can help. I had to take my time to post, so please don’t feel any pressure from me on when you write about it. And there’s no way I could do 15, but I did what I could.
I’ll keep you in my prayers as always, but ask God to give you the extra strength you need for hubbie’s celebration!! 🙂
Love,
Kathy
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October 2, 2012 at 3:33 PM
Thank you, Kathy, and you are in my prayers– I am so happy you are feeling better! Thanks again for the boost and the prayers! Love, Ellen
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October 2, 2012 at 8:18 PM
Hi Ellen,
I have today awarded your blog The Reality Blog Award. You can find out all about it here http://voicesofglass.com/2012/12/17/reality-blog-award-gratefully-accepted/ and I am delighted to have been able to award this award to your blog as you and it deserve it in my opinion.
Kind Regards and God Bless you.
Kevin
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December 16, 2012 at 11:39 PM
Dear Kevin,
I am very honored and humbled that you would give me this award. I am afraid I have to decline though. I am just keeping my head above water with Christmas and a family crisis involving one of my two remaining relatives, a beloved aunt. I do Christmas in a big way and it always takes its toll on me, both physically and emotionally. I am treading on thin ice and I am just waiting for the crash. A hard time of year even though I do love it– or used to. Don’t get me wrong, I am tremendously grateful to have my beloved hubby and my life however it is right now. I have many blessings.
I do hope you understand and I am extremely honored that you thought of me for the award however ironic it is, me, with my tenuous grasp on reality.
Thank you, dear, dear Kevin, God bless you, Ellen
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December 17, 2012 at 10:01 AM
This is such a wonderful dedication to individuals with BPD and Asperger’s syndrome. My brother has Asperger’s and he was misdiagnosed for so long. He’s suffered a lot because of that. I’m glad to hear such a lovely person is advocating for people like my brother. I love this.
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February 21, 2013 at 6:54 PM
Thank you so very much, Megan. It means a lot to me. I was just diagnosed a few years ago and it was a relief. Will respond to your other generous note which I just found on your site now. Tell your brother to keep up hope.
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February 21, 2013 at 8:30 PM
Hello my dear Ellen, I have nominated you for the Liebster Award!
http://meganhasocd.com/2013/03/02/the-liebster-blog-award/
I love your blog, hence “Liebster”, “my favorite” or “dearest.”
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March 1, 2013 at 9:02 PM
Hi dear Megan,
What a lovely thing!! Thank you so very much!! I stopped doing awards awhile ago because can’t juggle them in with everything else I am doing. But I so appreciate your thoughtfulness and YOU certainly deserved the award.
Thanks again, Megan, Ellen
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March 2, 2013 at 11:22 AM
P.S. If you ever want to do a guest blog on Moonside you would be most highly welcome to.
On Sat, Mar 2, 2013 at 11:21 AM, Ellen Stockdale Wolfe wrote:
> Hi dear Megan, > > What a lovely thing!! Thank you so very much!! I stopped doing awards > awhile ago because can’t juggle them in with everything else I am doing. > But I so appreciate your thoughtfulness and YOU certainly deserved the > award. > > Thanks again, Megan, > Ellen > >
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March 2, 2013 at 11:23 AM
I continue to enjoy your work and have named you to receive the “Very Inspiring Blog” award. Check my site for details in about an hour. – Paul F. Lenzi at Poesy plus Polemics.
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March 14, 2013 at 4:54 PM
Just saw this a few minutes ago and am quite word-less. I so respect your writing and your site and, in fact, was a bit in awe of you so never would dream of such a thing. But molto, molto grazie!! I take it very seriously coming from you. Will check your site in an hour or so. Have to cook dinner. Thank you so very much!
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March 14, 2013 at 7:13 PM
Awesome!
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March 15, 2013 at 4:29 PM
Thank you. I so respect what you are doing. Going vegan and am inspired by it. And being a therapist as well. My husband is a clinical social worker. You both help others despite your own problems and that is admirable.
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March 16, 2013 at 10:34 AM
First of all, I am glad we were brought together. I applaud your courage and determination to succeed in the face of trials. I have a very good friend with Bi Polar/Aspergers. And I have tried to be the best friend possible and understand what he lives with. I have gone to sites and read about this. I also worked as a therapist in mental health with long term mental health patients.
I admire your desire to be strong and positive. That always makes a difference and is the first step to any sefl help.
I appreciate you visitng my site as well. I shall continue to visit with you. I love learning and making new friends.
Yisraela
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March 17, 2013 at 11:40 PM
Thank you so much, Yisraela. Very nice of you to write. I admire your work as a therapist. My husband is a clinical social worker working with the chronically mentally ill in a very poor part of town. Appreciate your writing. Good luck with your friend– we can be very difficult.
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March 18, 2013 at 11:30 AM
Hello! I wanted to let you know that I’ve nominated you for the Very Inspiring Blogger Award. Don’t feel obligated to go through the acceptance steps, I realize that life gets crazy. I was more interested in sharing your blog with my readers because I love it so much. However, if you’re interested the details are here: http://stinasjourney.wordpress.com/2013/03/23/who-doesnt-like-the-occasional-pat-on-the-back/
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March 23, 2013 at 8:07 PM
Thank you so very much, Stinam, for nominating me for the Very Inspiring Blog award. It is an honor and I appreciate your support very much!
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March 24, 2013 at 1:11 PM
You are very welcome!
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March 24, 2013 at 1:30 PM
you have a very inspiring blog, thank you for sharing your inspiration! One Love
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April 3, 2013 at 12:34 PM
Thank you so much. One love!
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April 4, 2013 at 7:42 PM
Hello, my friend Ellen, you have a nice blog up here. Well done! 🙂 And your book sounds like a good project. I wish you the very best of luck with your publishing endeavors 🙂
Here I would like to kindly thank you for following my blog. That is very kind of you. It is my mission to serve humanity through the written word. It is my aim to illuminate the World with my Light of Love. To do so, I write inspirational poetry and short stories and post them every Thursday. Please feel free to visit if you feel like inspiration. Take care and may the Light of Love perpetually shine in your heart, my friend Ellen. ♥
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April 8, 2013 at 8:12 PM
Dear Subhan,
Thank you for your lovely note. And thanks for appreciating things on my blog. I will look forward to your Thursday posts. Love and Light, Ellen
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April 8, 2013 at 9:10 PM
Thank you, Ellen You are one generous soul, many blessings and much love to you ♥
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April 10, 2013 at 4:22 PM
Thank you and same to you. Appreciate your wishes.
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April 11, 2013 at 10:38 AM
Hey Ellen! I gave a shout out to you on my recent post. Check it out: http://honkifyourevegan.com/. Celeste:)
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May 19, 2013 at 11:58 AM
Thank you so much, Celeste, for the shout-out about my blog but I think there is some mix-up. Although I think you very deserving certainly, I did not give this award to you, in fact did not know there was such an award. So someone else deserves the credit. Thank you anyhow and congratulations on the award. As I say, you surely deserve it. Have you ever thought of doing a cookbook?
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May 20, 2013 at 11:01 AM
Oh, sounds like I really goofed! Oh well, such is life! I’m happy that I was able to give you a shout out anyway. And no, I’ve never thought of doing a cookbook. My blog is more of a lifestyle blog with some recipes. I don’t think I’m a good enough cook to write a cookbook. Celeste:)
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May 20, 2013 at 11:48 AM
Well, thanks again and congratulations!
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May 20, 2013 at 12:15 PM
Dearest Ellen 🙂
Loved the post and just wanted to let you know that and that I have today nominated you for a “Sunshine Award”. You can read about it here at http://voicesofglass.com/2013/06/02/sunshine-award-2/
Keep up the excellent work!
Kind regards and God bless you.
Kevin.
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June 2, 2013 at 8:44 AM
Dearest Kevin,
I am so honored by the award and deeply grateful to you for thinking of me. Thank you so very much!
God bless you and keep you,
Ellen xx
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June 2, 2013 at 7:56 PM
Thanks for visiting my blog, going to investigate yours too 🙂 I’ve added you on my links –> friends, you doing the same helps people find our blogs 🙂
Keep in touch …
Cheers
Don Charisma
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August 10, 2013 at 12:45 AM
Thanks so much! One day will catch up to adding all the links I follow.
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August 12, 2013 at 11:42 AM
Hello – I nominated your blog for the Liebster award before I noticed that you have an award free blog. http://crown7cacb.wordpress.com/2013/08/30/the-liebster-award/
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August 30, 2013 at 3:59 PM
Dear Natasha,
Thank you so very much for offering this award. I am humbled and touched. Will be visiting your blog. Again, thank you for your kindness.
Blessings,
Ellen
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August 30, 2013 at 6:39 PM
You’re welcome. I enjoy reading your blog.
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August 30, 2013 at 8:01 PM
I write a blog about Aspergers. http://www.thatawkwardkid93.wordpress.com. Feel free to visit. 😀
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October 19, 2013 at 3:56 PM
Thanks, will do.
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October 19, 2013 at 5:18 PM
i hope you like skirts cause here’s one for you 🙂 http://kintal.wordpress.com/?p=2353
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December 1, 2013 at 9:56 PM
Congratulations to you, Marlyn, and thank you so very much for passing the award on to me. I am honored. Warm regards, Ellen
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December 2, 2013 at 10:34 AM
Brilliant!!! I will look into getting one!!
I am so excited!
x
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December 4, 2013 at 3:33 PM
How nice!! I hope you won’t be disappointed and hope that it might help you. You can learn to live with mental illness, especially with a loving husband, which you are so blessed to have, as am I. It is an unusual story. But so is yours. Can’t wait to read about your life with your husband in India and I wish much, much happiness. But being down sometimes even in wedded bliss is okay, too. I read how you are going to pursue a branch of pharmacology which I am unfamiliar with but is your passion. Go for it!!! A job you love is important, second to finding the man you love!
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December 4, 2013 at 4:04 PM
Awwww yes!!! You are right!!
Pharmacognosy is the medicinal properties of plants!!
I am sure I will love your book! Thank you so much Ellen! Lots of loveee
Lauren ❤
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December 4, 2013 at 4:08 PM
Pharmacognosy… will have to look it up. I have a passion for essential oils and use them medicinally. But to know about herbs would be even more wonderful. Wishing you the best. That is much better than working for the drug companies.
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December 4, 2013 at 4:25 PM
I should also add…
I know what you are saying… I received a torrent of abuse from people all over the world about my mental illness!! It is so sad and in the future I would really like to think of a way to explain to ignorrant people how mental illness (or homosexuality) is not something to be ashamed of.
It is really sad. You are SO brave for sharing you story… any friends which turned away from you were not true friends so it is best if they are not around you anyway.
I hope you are well beautiful Ellen!!
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December 16, 2013 at 7:03 PM
You did??? I am so sorry– that must have been tough. Another memoir writer who wrote about his Bipolar Disorder told me that he expected to get rejection from some friends. He did but he said he grossly underestimated how much rejection he faced. Thanks for saying I was brave. You are brave, too. I am sorry you experienced that abuse!! And you are right about my friends, of course. True friends are very rare anyhow. I lost my best friend 30 years ago and she is irreplaceable. But now I have my lovely husband who works with the mentally ill everyday– the poor mentally ill that no one else helps. So, like you, I am very blessed with a wonderful husband. I just wish he loved Bollywood movies.
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December 17, 2013 at 7:05 PM
Hello Ellen, I’m thrilled that you are following my blog, thanks so much!!
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December 6, 2013 at 5:44 PM
You are most welcome!
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December 7, 2013 at 3:03 PM
Thank you so much :). I am happy you enjoy my paintings 🙂
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December 22, 2013 at 1:55 AM
From you IAN profile: “In 2000 she left libraries to become a Reiki Master…”
I like that! 🙂
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December 28, 2013 at 12:35 PM
Thank you– are you a Reiki Master yourself?
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December 28, 2013 at 12:52 PM
I am a Master of nothing, unfortunately
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December 30, 2013 at 6:04 PM
Aww! Being a Reiki Master is no great shakes. Actually I am a Master of nothing, too. I am sorry you feel so lowly about yourself because I know how that feels. I am sure you are a Master of something!! Anyhow may the New Year bring you joy and something that makes you feel like a Master.
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December 30, 2013 at 8:25 PM
I am a “Doctor of Philosophy” but that is no great shakes either. Nothing much is, I have come to realise. Happy New Year.
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December 31, 2013 at 4:29 PM
Well, that is pretty big in my book but I know what you mean. It is who you are that matters. Happy New Year to you, too.
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December 31, 2013 at 9:04 PM
Reblogged this on MOONSIDE.
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January 8, 2014 at 3:34 PM
hello, Ellen. You’re on my spotlight today. please let me know of any changes you’d like me to make. Thanks for allowing me to feature you in my blog. 😀
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February 5, 2014 at 11:58 PM
Thanks so very much, Marlyn! I am quite sick so cannot properly comment with the much gratitude due you. I took a quick look and it looks great! I will get back to you when better.
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February 6, 2014 at 9:02 AM
Hey Ellen–Just wanted to thank you for recommending your book to me. I am about a third of the way through it, and think it is great so far! Hope you are doing well. Sharon
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May 5, 2014 at 11:29 PM
Thank YOU so much, Sharon, for reading my book. A lot of blood, sweat and tears went into it. So glad you like it so far. Thank you again, Ellen
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May 6, 2014 at 12:09 PM
Ellen, last week i was invited by a friend to join a virtual blog tour. Now it’s my turn to feature my friends on the said tour. Please allow me to have you there. Here’s a link (a sample) so you’ll have an idea on how it looks like http://lkharris-kolp.blogspot.com/2014/05/virtual-blog-tour.html
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June 1, 2014 at 10:06 PM
Hi Marlyn,
Sorry not to get back to you sooner but just saw this email a few minutes ago… I am so touched that you would send it to me. You are so kind but I have to decline. I have almost two hundred emails to go through and am just too swamped. I thank you so very much of thinking of me. Means such a lot coming from an artist and poet like you!
Warmest regards and gratitude, Ellen
On Sun, Jun 1, 2014 at 10:07 PM, MOONSIDE wrote:
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June 2, 2014 at 9:11 AM
i understand, maybe next time when you are not too busy ;D
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June 2, 2014 at 5:47 PM
Thank you for understanding. I was away a few days and am on so many lists and subscribed to too many blogs and posted too many posts. How do you manage? You seem to be able to keep up. Thank you again for thinking of me. Best regards, Ellen
On Mon, Jun 2, 2014 at 5:47 PM, MOONSIDE wrote:
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June 2, 2014 at 6:12 PM
you deserve to be viewed by many bloggers ;D
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June 2, 2014 at 6:57 PM
Thanks so much, Marlyn, and I send the same sentiment right back to YOU!
On Mon, Jun 2, 2014 at 6:57 PM, MOONSIDE wrote:
> marlynsuarezexconde commented: “you deserve to be viewed by many > bloggers ;D” >
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June 3, 2014 at 4:44 PM
Beautiful blog! I’ve loved reading your posts and the art work is amazing!! Thank you for the follow xx
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July 13, 2014 at 6:17 AM
You’re welcome and thank YOU for your kind words!
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July 14, 2014 at 10:28 AM
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Good evening friend.I wanted to ask: could I add your book and website link to my sidebar? Namaste 🙂
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October 8, 2014 at 2:48 PM
I would be honored. Thank you so much! Namaste, Ellen
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October 8, 2014 at 8:48 PM
My best wishes for a Merry Christmas & Happy New Year! With love Maxima
https://www.smashwords.com/books/view/501037
Merry Christams from maxima on Vimeo.
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December 26, 2014 at 5:23 PM
Thank you and best wishes to you, Maxima, for the new year and always!! Thanks so much for your support. xxx Ellen
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December 31, 2014 at 4:14 PM
Very nice and inspiring blog, Ellen! Thanks for following “Known is a drop, Unknown is an Ocean”. 🙂
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January 24, 2015 at 1:53 PM
My pleasure!
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January 24, 2015 at 8:47 PM
Ellen … I truly apologize for my use of one of your sentences on my blog … I wrote it in my notebook and when I used it I didn’t know where it came from … Please will you forgive me … I went back and gave it quotation marks and you credit … In the future I will be so much more mindful …I am sorry …
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January 31, 2015 at 11:15 AM
I just nominated you for the Leibster Award xxoo, please look at this post for directions: https://bipolar1blog.wordpress.com/2015/03/15/i-have-been-nominated-for-the-leibster-award/
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March 15, 2015 at 4:38 PM
Thank you so much for this honor. I do appreciate it but Moonside is an award-free blog. Many thanks again, and best to you, Ellen
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March 15, 2015 at 6:58 PM
Nice blog 💓
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June 9, 2020 at 1:32 AM
Thank you so much! ❤
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June 9, 2020 at 10:16 PM
My pleasure, followed you 💜
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June 9, 2020 at 11:16 PM
Hi!
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April 23, 2022 at 11:34 AM
Hope your day is going well. Interesting post.
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April 23, 2022 at 11:39 AM
Thank you so much!
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April 23, 2022 at 11:46 AM
Have a good weekend and thanks for stopping by.
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April 23, 2022 at 11:47 AM
Yes, poems have a way of coming and going, don’t they? =) Congratulations on the writing you have published.
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January 13, 2023 at 8:20 PM
Thank you so much!! 🙏🏽
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January 13, 2023 at 8:22 PM
Hi there! I’m so sorry you’re not seeing the responses to your comments. I make an effort to respond to every one. I can see the responses on my side. I hope you’ll keep reading and commenting. I appreciate you!
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May 31, 2023 at 12:27 PM
Thank you for writing. I will check again but I wrote extensively as I am Bipolar. Sorry to send a complaint, especially since I think so highly of you and your blog. Sorry I am not on FB to see your writing there but can’t handle it. WordPress is all I can handle. Thank you so much for writing. Bless you, Ellen 🙏🏽
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May 31, 2023 at 12:47 PM
I understand completely. We often can’t rely on technology. I do read every comment and appreciate every one of them. Hopefully we can get this figured out so you can see my responses.
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May 31, 2023 at 12:52 PM
Yes, I will be very mindful in the future. Once again, my apologies. 🙏
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May 31, 2023 at 2:00 PM
Ellen, you are an absolute gem! Wishing you an abundance of blessings and heaps of love. 😊 I just had to take a moment to reach out and let you know how incredibly grateful we are for your fantastic blog. Your blog covers such a colorful spectrum of topics, and your commitment to sharing valuable insights is nothing short of amazing.
If you ever find yourself in the mood for some uplifting Health & Wellness content, we’d be absolutely thrilled if you could drop by our website, WellHealthHub.com. There, you’ll discover a treasure trove of resources and articles that dive deep into various aspects of leading a healthy and harmonious life.
Your unwavering dedication to crafting meaningful content in the digital realm is truly remarkable. Keep up the fantastic work, Ellen!
Sending you warm regards and loads of positivity,
Kai
http://www.WellHealthHub.com 🌟
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September 6, 2023 at 7:47 PM
Dear Kai, I am not quite sure what to make of your website but I thank you very much for yourvkind words. I signed up.
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September 7, 2023 at 9:32 PM
Bonjour ELLEN tout le meilleur à toi et à ta famille , je te souhaite de belles de fin d’années en famille ou en en couple gros bisous avec toute mon amitié et merci encore pour tes écris sur mon blog Bernard surtout ne t’occupe pas des autres fais ton chemin
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December 5, 2023 at 2:47 AM
Bon week end en famille ELLEN bisous Bernard
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December 15, 2023 at 3:59 AM
Bon week end a VOUS et votre famille❣️Bisous de Noel! Ellen
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December 15, 2023 at 9:09 AM
Bonjour bonne année 2024 bises
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December 31, 2023 at 3:58 AM
Je desire Toutes les bon choses pour 2024 pour vous, Bernard. Merci pour toutes❣️Bises d’amitie❣️🎄🐘🙏🏽
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December 31, 2023 at 11:49 AM