Overloaded Circuits: a Poem for World Bipolar Day, March 30, 2014
I’m in somnia
with jackhammer brain
a buzzing mind
a humming with emotions
thoughts and pictures
memories of joys
lost to death
spirits close to my heart
seemingly worlds away
guilt, loss and happiness
sickness and death
as well as
breathtaking beauty
a bedfellow with
gnawing worries
and gnashing nerves
fleeting images from films and
music playing at high speed
in the library of my mind
voices of today, yesterday and
fears of tomorrow
vying for an ear
asking me to listen
to them all
all at once
a cacophony of sounds
in the humming silence
of the specter-filled
haunting darkness
with fearsome death dangling
its loathsome threats
before my darting eyes
afraid not for myself
but of losing him
as he lies beside me
breathing noises
breeding worry, sorry
dashing thoughts of love, passion, doubts
a scarily-still lump beside
insomniac-hyper-racing-mind
manic me
finally arising out of
maudlin months
of dismal darkness
and deep, dark despair
when death smelled sweet to me
*
I get out of bed
to lay my face
upon the windowsill
to gaze at the mystery sky
full of twinkling stars
glittering to the rhythms
of the pulsing universe
my only hope for some
semblance of somnolence
my only chance for peace.
For info on my Bipolar memoir, please see: http://www.independentauthornetwork.com/ellen-stockdale-wolfe.html
breathtakingly beautiful, moving, full of atmosphere, full of feeling, Ellen, have a nice week-end, warm regards Mitza
LikeLike
March 29, 2014 at 12:39 PM
Thank you, dear Master Jewelry Artisan, for your complimentary comment. Glad you liked it. You have a good weekend, too. Warmest regards, Ellen
LikeLike
March 29, 2014 at 4:04 PM
heart wrenching
LikeLike
March 29, 2014 at 12:54 PM
Thank you, Paul! I felt you would understand.
LikeLike
March 29, 2014 at 4:03 PM
Incredibly evocative, Ellen. Feels like a soul bared. Your honesty is humbling. xx
LikeLike
March 29, 2014 at 2:11 PM
Thank you so very much, Running Elk, for the lovely comment!! Thanks for your continued support!! Much appreciated!! xx 😉
LikeLike
March 29, 2014 at 4:02 PM
Thanks for the wonderful poem, I have some idea now of the depth of this mind state. A valuable statement, could lead to some new thought on finding the cure, the way out…
LikeLike
March 29, 2014 at 10:04 PM
Thank you so much! Glad it offered insight. Much obliged, Ellen
LikeLike
March 30, 2014 at 10:09 AM
Reblogged this on Stigmama.
LikeLike
March 30, 2014 at 8:51 PM
Thank you very much for the reblog!
LikeLike
April 2, 2014 at 10:57 AM
Reblogged this on Stigmama.
LikeLike
March 30, 2014 at 9:34 PM
Thanks so much for the reblog!
LikeLike
April 2, 2014 at 10:56 AM