Apologies to My Readers, Christine Blasey Ford and Good Men

I am so sorry for my post of self pity of last week about sexual abuse. To those of you who responded in spite of it,  you are very special, giving people.  I rewrote the post, addressing the second half to Christine Blasey Ford.  It has been a very rough time of disappointment upon disappointment… politically,  with friends, and even with my male psychiatrist.  But one person and one person alone HAS been there– as always… my devoted husband. He understood where most men have shockingly not. Some of you who responded to the post last week are men, and I regard you as most special, too.

When Kavanaugh was confirmed yesterday, my husband held me and let me sob the pain out of experiences from long ago.  His care, his love is so pure, I think of it as sacred.  It brings me to God and gratitude. I am profoundly grateful to, and for, him. These are very dark times and it is hard to see God in the current state of the country.  But love surpasseth all.  It is my husband’s birthday tomorrow and I will strive to give back to him, in my own imperfect way, all he has given and whatever I can add of my own.

Meantime, apologies.  I am sorry my gut spoke out.  And to those of you who wrote in despite that, a most profound thank you.

17 responses

  1. Lana Levine

    I didn’t see your message for some reason. so glad you have Tom with you. but do remember that there are millions who are with you too.

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    October 7, 2018 at 11:40 AM

  2. Lana, thank you very much for writing. It is just as well you didn’t see the other post. It was about my grandfather etc.

    How are you doing these days?


    Liked by 1 person

    October 7, 2018 at 12:52 PM

  3. It takes courage to speak your truth from the heart. I commend you and stand with you.

    Liked by 3 people

    October 7, 2018 at 2:44 PM

  4. lots of triggers in these past weeks…tale care of you Ellen ☺️💫❤️ smiles hedy

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    October 7, 2018 at 7:12 PM

  5. Ellen
    No need to say sorry, you have nothing to apologise for.

    ALWAYS with you


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    October 7, 2018 at 9:49 PM

    • Thank you, John! Was on the reader looking for posts from you today but couldn’t find any. Hope to read and post more regularly now. Appreciate your caring. Hug, Ellen

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      October 7, 2018 at 10:43 PM

  6. Perhaps it is your contribution to humanity to cry for the nation.

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    October 7, 2018 at 11:49 PM

  7. That’s a nice thought. xx ellen

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    October 8, 2018 at 12:41 PM

  8. You have nothing to apologise for, Ellen. It takes strength to speak our truth. And it gives courage to others. Big love. x x x

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    October 12, 2018 at 6:07 PM

  9. Thank you, Ashley!! Big love back, xxx ellen

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    October 13, 2018 at 6:22 PM

  10. Hi Ellen I’m sorry that I’m just reading this post and I didn’t get to see the previous post but please know that you have my full support. My thoughts and prayers are with you always. 🙏🙏🙏♥️♥️♥️

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    August 6, 2022 at 9:37 PM

    • Kelly, I hardly know you but feel like we are old friends. You are awesome!! I am so impressed with you.
      The old post was about a “mildly” incestuous relationship I had with my Sicilian grandfather whom I was very close to and who was a great man despite what happened. He may have saved me in many ways despite the “fooling around.” I was very young but as I got older, like around 7, I knew what he wanted me to do was wrong and I didn’t do it. He let it go. I “forgot” about all of it until I got older and met someone who was terribly abused by many people. Then it all came back. And, again in the Kavanaugh hearing, it came back again.
      Thank you so much, Kelly, for your so-kind words. I want to be there for YOU, too. And I only know a short version of your story. Any time you want to “talk”, I can be available to listen. Thanks so much for caring. ❤️🥰🥰🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽❣️

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      August 6, 2022 at 10:04 PM

  11. Thank you so much for sharing. Its amazing that at such a young age you were wise beyond your years and you stood your ground. Your such an inspiration of courage and wisdom. I feel so honored and blessed to have met you and learn about your life. You are a remarkable talented caring person Ellen. Many blessings to you always. 🙏🙏♥️♥️🤗🤗

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    August 6, 2022 at 11:15 PM

    • Dear Kelly,
      I cannot find the message you wrote telling me you were blessed by God with a soul mate AND a best friend!! I am so happy for you. AND I am so happy God let me meet YOU! ☺️ It is late now and I want to write more but can’t. I feel blessed that God 🙏🏽 introduced me to you. You can’t know how much this means to me. My friends… none of them understood. Wendi did but she died a long time ago, as I said. She was 39.

      I think you are a beautiful young woman and I am an old lady. But I can still be a friend and I can still offer my ears. You are very, very special. Your victory over cancer has made you wise beyond your years. May God bless YOU and your soulmate and your friend always! ❣️❣️🙏🏽🙏🏽🥰🥰🥰


      August 6, 2022 at 11:39 PM

      • P.S. My husband was a psychiatric social worker before he had to retire. He is my soulmate and the light of my life.


        August 6, 2022 at 11:41 PM

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