“Life Goes On”

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“Life Goes On”


That’s what Dad always said,

Remember, Tony?

My dear swarthy brother,

dark of skin,

warm of heart,

we shared the same hazel eyes,

a mix of Mom’s Sicilian brown

and Dad’s brilliant blue.

We lived separate lives,

you in Michigan,

me in New York,

you with three adopted children,

me, childless with Ko-ko and Tom.

You weren’t supposed to DIE!

You and I were to be

fellow way-farers

on the road through life.

We were to live parallel lives

and you were supposed to die

when you were old and feeble,

not middle-aged,

in a tortured death!

It wasn’t supposed to be like this.


“Life goes on.”


Today I light a candle

on my altar to you and Mom and Dad

and send you Reiki

like I did while you fought for your life

for two years

after a prognosis of two months.

My heart aches

on this second anniversary

of your death.


“Life goes on.”


Your wife, your children, and I

cry out for you

but you have moved on to some higher form.

You paid your karmic dues,

with your diagnosis, cancer.

Long before,

you always told me

not to worry,

that you’d live long because

only the good die young.

But you were too good

and you died far too young

and I live on in my little, reclusive life,

Ko-ko no longer here,

just me and Tom.

I should have been the one to go

but the good die young.


“And life goes on.”

12 responses

  1. Nostalgic and touching memoir. Life goes on….true words!


    June 17, 2013 at 3:19 PM

    • Thank you, Arjun! For some reason, I think you may be a bit like my brother. He lived hard. I fear you do, too. That is the older sister in me talking. Sorry.


      June 17, 2013 at 6:07 PM

  2. Running Elk

    {{{Hugs}}} Heart with yours, Ellen. xx


    June 17, 2013 at 3:22 PM

  3. A heart full of sadness and love for you. God be with you Ellen


    June 17, 2013 at 3:43 PM

    • Thank you, Yisraela, for all your love. God be with YOU, too! xx ellen


      June 17, 2013 at 6:09 PM

  4. no pain such as loss


    June 17, 2013 at 4:54 PM

    • It’s the worst! Thanks for reading and commenting, Paul!


      June 17, 2013 at 6:10 PM

  5. I’m so sorry for the loss of your brother.


    June 17, 2013 at 8:26 PM

  6. Genie

    It’s so hard to lose loved ones. Condolences.


    June 21, 2013 at 1:55 PM

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