The Dawn of Hope and the Hope of Dawn


I await the dawn
rigid with anxiety
each minute an hour
as you sleep beside me
lost in the land of Morpheus.
I cannot rest,
try talking to God
cannot hear Him.
Where is He?
No Presence felt
inside my icy heart.
Do the birds wait
like me, in despair,
for that first magenta burst
of the high and mighty sun?
Then when the first light comes
you awaken and bring tea,
I put my hand on your back
to bless you with Reiki,
as we lounge together drinking warmth.
And I feel God’s presence
and I feel joy and peace and love,
all snug in bed with you and God…
It is for these few special moments
I live.

24 responses

  1. Where there is connection and love there is Presence. How easy we forget when our thinking makes us feel alone in the night. 💛
    Lovely post!

    Liked by 3 people

    January 25, 2016 at 4:53 PM

    • Thank you so much and, yes, how easy we forget or deny totally! Thanks for your thoughts.

      Liked by 1 person

      January 26, 2016 at 6:48 AM

  2. How lovely, Ellen! And you’ve started writing again. A good sign to be sure. x o x

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    January 25, 2016 at 7:45 PM

    • Good to see you, Ash!! I finally wrote you but stupidly sent the email to myself. Corrected that! Thank you so much for your encouragement, Ash! This is an old thing I doctored but maybe it is a beginning. xx ellen


      January 26, 2016 at 6:50 AM

  3. Lovely, Ellen!

    Liked by 1 person

    January 26, 2016 at 9:04 AM

  4. Thanks so much, Richard!


    January 26, 2016 at 12:54 PM

  5. It is soulful and beautiful as the lady who wrote it from her heart.
    Blessings Yisraela
    PS John and I have set a wedding date for July 31st this year.
    Love you

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    January 26, 2016 at 8:03 PM

    • Dear Yisraela,
      Thank you so much for your lovely comment and for your extra special news!! I am so happy for you and John and wish you every happiness!! You certainly deserve it. It’s been a long and bumpy ride, hasn’t it?
      Much love,


      January 26, 2016 at 9:20 PM

  6. May I ask of you dear Ellen, is it the same when there is a bright moon illuminating the night sky? H ❤

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    January 27, 2016 at 8:56 AM

  7. Good question. ❤ to you as well. How are you doing?


    January 27, 2016 at 12:55 PM

  8. very nice 🙂

    Liked by 1 person

    January 28, 2016 at 1:39 PM

  9. Beautiful photo and beautiful words. Thank you. I feel God’s presence and love in your life. Bless you. Peace.

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    January 30, 2016 at 10:52 PM

    • What a lovely comment… especially since I don’t anymore on homeopathic lithium orotate. Love/hate relationship with medication. What can I say?

      Liked by 1 person

      February 2, 2016 at 9:30 PM

  10. Ellen, your tenderness for your husband is evident. Yes, love is a reason to live—for sure.
    Blessings to both of you ~ Wendy

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    February 2, 2016 at 11:21 PM

  11. Thank you so much, Wendy! Blessings to you and hubbie as well!


    February 5, 2016 at 3:26 PM

  12. Ellen,

    This work speaks poignantly to the need for relationship we all have. How urgently we need to find that conduit to the divine that our loved ones offer us… It is amazing to me how various conditions can so influence our awareness of Love. I hope you are well, and resting in warmth and light this evening.


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    February 9, 2016 at 7:10 PM

    • Thank you so much for your generous comment. Yes, our loved ones offer us a vision of God for where love is, God is. Peace to you and your loved ones, Michael!

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      February 9, 2016 at 8:17 PM

  13. Hi Ellen, I hear you. It has been different and similar here. No “long distance connector” for a very long time. The experience created a nihilistic outlook, and that outlook destroys any glimpses of ‘more’. I have never been a fan of hope, and that makes it even harder.
    But not unlike the seasons, everything in the interior world is a wave. And now that the sun goes to sleep after 6pm already, and a daffodil wants to bloom, …
    There was surrender when we caught a flu, 2 weeks ago. Seems that in my case, this surrender took away some debris of former worlds. There is a little light now, … let’s ride the wave of spring 🙂 and enjoy what comes. Light and Love are connected. We don’t know why and how, but it does not matter. You are not alone.

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    February 11, 2016 at 6:41 PM

    • Well, yes, light and love are connected. I used to love the night but now… We have been sick, too. Husband is going to retire because the job is making him ill. We will have to sell our little barn in the country, alas, our connection to nature. But life will be simpler hopefully and perhaps more spiritual. Glad you see signs of spring and more light. Hope you are better. Thank you for being there. We have single digits weather F coming but spring is near. And you are just keystrokes away.

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      February 11, 2016 at 11:38 PM

      • I yesterday noticed the -17C on the weekend map for NY — hopefully it doesn’t last too long. Be well!


        February 12, 2016 at 3:39 AM

      • Thank you, and you and family as well!!


        February 12, 2016 at 8:32 AM

  14. Lee

    Beautiful in black and white.


    September 29, 2016 at 8:09 AM

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