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Sadhguru’s Cure for a Spiritual Lobotomy

Another invisible illness silently
sapping quality of life
vertigo and acute nausea
now join
constant migraines
and, with Aspergers, I am
more of a recluse than ever
But my beloved stands by me
A few weeks ago
I wanted to die
Bipolar, too, you see
too sick to sleep
too long a wait
to see a doctor
My beloved, my savior
keeps me going.
But I must fight on my own
and have enlisted Sadhguru
an Indian mystic and Yogi and guru
who promises bliss.

Meditating and chanting every day
with my beautiful husband
whose love
pulls me through
My husband the healer
who worked
with the poorest of the poor
the dejected and rejected
the condemned
My husband who married me
despite my mental illness.

Sadhguru says my mind
can poison my body
Sadhguru, my last best hope
I meditate and chant Aum
with him daily
living the life of a hermit
in a 3 room box in New York City
rather than in a cave in the Himalayas
Desperately seeking
the spirituality of years ago
before antipsychotic medication
gave me a spiritual lobotomy
A trade off
it offered me
some sort of stability
to have a quasi normal life
with my devoted husband
of 28 years.

Why can’t you have
pharmacological sanity
that allows you to love
AND spirituality???
I am going to try…
With Sadhguru.

Posted by stockdalewolfe | September 15, 2017 | Categories: Asperger's & Autism, Asperger's and Love, Bipolar Disorder, Depression and Mania, Poetry, Sadhguru, Spirituality, Uncategorized, Videos | Tags: Antipsychotic medication, Asperger's, Bipolar Disorder, Bliss, Chanting Aum, Consciousness, How to meditate, Illness and quality of life, Inner Engineering, Isha Foundation, Love, Marriage, Meditation, Meditation instructions, Mental illness, Physical illness and Mental illness, Reclusiveness and illness, Reclusiveness and mental illness, Sadhguru, Sadhguru Jaggi Vasudev, Spiritual lobotomy, Spirituality, Spirituality in mental illness, Suicidal ideation | 9 Comments

Flitting and Flirting on a Flower

Butterflies mating
on a flower petal bed
The perfume of love
in a plethora of hues
Fleeting moments
of life
of the present
past in a blink
of the eye
or the flutter
of a butterfly wing.

Posted by stockdalewolfe | August 29, 2017 | Categories: Animal & Landscape Photographs, Flowers, Nature Photography, Poetry, Spirituality, Uncategorized | Tags: August weeds, Butterflies, Flowers, Great Spangled Fritillary, Joe Pie Weed, Spirituality | 13 Comments

Stormy Weather

Taking a break from blogging for awhile. Following a class with the famous yogi, Sadhguru, on Inner Engineering which is quite wonderful and I plan on spending lots of time on. A sample of his way of thinking is below.

Posted by stockdalewolfe | June 28, 2017 | Categories: Animal & Landscape Photographs, Anxiety, Bipolar Disorder, Nature Photography, Sadhguru, Spirituality, Uncategorized | Tags: Consciousness, Inner Engineering, Mental suffering, Sadhguru, Storm clouds, Suffering, Thunder storms, Weather, Yoga, Yogis | 19 Comments

Stolen Heaven

(Turn speakers up high)

Dawn
One chill morning
Of late spring
Early summer
Beat the heat
Birds arise
Singing
Bhajans
To their creator
As they awaken
In a celebration
Of life
Replete
With ecstasis

Posted by stockdalewolfe | June 17, 2017 | Categories: Animal & Landscape Photographs, Nature Photography, Poetry, Videos | Tags: Birdsong, Dawn, Nature, Spirituality, Spring, summer | 11 Comments

Messages from God

Sue at Silent Eye recently posted a discussion of bibliomancy on her blog…

Divination by the book

As a former librarian, I had an experience of bibliomancy with an encyclopedia. It was at a time in my life when I was in a sort of parallel universe. In any case, I had the distinct feeling of a prickly scalp and I wanted to do what I called “readings” which meant basically opening a book randomly to anything looking for messages from God. So I did just that and opened to a page with a picture of Christ and His crown of thorns. I can’t remember how I interpreted it but I knew I was “connected” to something way bigger than my mind.

I had many such experiences and they are delineated in my book, Eye-locks and Other Fearsome Things.

Posted by stockdalewolfe | June 4, 2017 | Categories: Asperger's & Autism, Asperger's and Love, Bipolar Disorder, Segments and references to my memoir, Spirituality, Uncategorized | Tags: Asperger's and love, Bibliomancy, Bipolar Disorder and Love, Mania, Messages from God, Parallel universes, Psychiatric memoir, Spirituality | 3 Comments

Springtime Reflections

Spring sunset reflections
Of a late dusk
In the twilight of life

Posted by stockdalewolfe | June 2, 2017 | Categories: Abstract Photography, Animal & Landscape Photographs, Nature Photography, Poetry | Tags: Abstract landscapes, Dusk, Landscape, Old Age, Poetry, Reflections in Photography, Spring, Twilight | 7 Comments

Spirit Animals

Running Elk has provided such a clear exposition of a subject about which I know so little. Bravo, RE!

Stepping Stones

This post is based on the outline of an exploration session presented at The Silent Eye (a modern mystery school) “Leaf and Flame: the Foliate Man” weekend in 2016. Whilst I have attempted to retain some of the flavour, and changes in direction, of the actual talk, the interactive elements of the exploration are absent, and since most of it was done “on the hoof”, it is not really a true reflection of the session. Many of the sections are expanded considerably from that presented on the day…

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Sourced from internet. Artist unknown.

Whether we recognise it or not, we receive guidance, often in areas in which we have no direct experience, from what can only be considered an “external” source. This “subconscious” guidance may be considered to emanate from many sources, including “spirit animals“.

Belief in spirit, and spirit guidance, is firmly…

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Posted by stockdalewolfe | May 14, 2017 | Categories: Uncategorized | 3 Comments

Happy Mother’s Day!

Happy Mother’s Day!

Love and pride in the mother’s eyes, complete trust in the infant’s sleep

Posted by stockdalewolfe | May 10, 2017 | Categories: Animal & Landscape Photographs, Animal Rights, Nature Photography, Spirituality | Tags: Child's trust, Lambs, Mother and Child, Mother and child bond, Mother's Day, Mother's love, Mother's pride, Sheep | 11 Comments

R.I.P. “Rabbit” with Love, Mouse

My friend
My friend with cancer
My friend
My friend who had chemo
Three runs of chemo
Radiation
Two surgeries
My friend who was cured
Whose cancer had gone
My friend who was cured
Who wanted to write a book
Who wrote to me often
Who listened to me with Heart
My friend
Where did he go?
Why did he die?
Why when he was starting anew
With his wife who stood by him
Helped him when he was sick
Why did he die?
I want to know
Where did he go?
I want to know if the chemo
Killed him
Chemo
It did not help my father,
My mother, my brother
My best friend
I thought I was wrong
I thought this time it helped my friend
Yes, it helped him alright
It killed him!
Why did he have to die?
Why?
My friend, “Rabbit,” Rest in Peace
Love forever, Mouse