Aching in the Moonlight

It’s night
But a full moon
The super moon
Wakes me at 3
Like an alarm
I married a Wolfe
Perhaps I am to howl
But I love the silence
In which I can hear
The ear sounds
Of my nervous system
Like a sea shell
Held to the ear
Sounds the ocean
I hear the whoosh
Of blood flow
Through my migrainous head
The pain keeping me
On the depressive side of mania
For in the distance
Coyotes sing
Their haunting howl
Usually heralds mania in me
A serenade
On moonlit hills
An elemental thrill
Perhaps time for a pill
To send me into the oblivion
Of Morpheus
And lead me to pain free dreams
And relief from this marathon
Of blinding ague
Where only the moonlight
So soothing and gentle
Does not hurts my throbbing eyes


17 responses

  1. This is intense and evocative Ellen. How can I say I empathise? In truth I can’t possibly do so; and yet still I feel some residue of pain transmitted through these words. At the same time, there is a serenity – I too ‘love the silence’ – which perhaps acts as a balm upon the emotions, as does the moon of course, the beautiful, shared orb of light.

    Hariod. ❤


    September 4, 2014 at 5:00 PM

    • You do empathise, Hariod. You do. Thank you for your lovely note! xx ellen Yes, the quiet is a balm. Definitely. And the moon, well, what can I say?

      On Thu, Sep 4, 2014 at 5:00 PM, MOONSIDE wrote:



      September 4, 2014 at 8:00 PM

  2. Beautifully written expression of pain. Migraines are the worst.


    September 4, 2014 at 9:21 PM

    • Thanks so much, Kitt. I have them all the time– think they can be comorbid with Bipolar. BTW, your new picture and hairdo(?) are very attractive!

      On Thu, Sep 4, 2014 at 9:21 PM, MOONSIDE wrote:


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      September 4, 2014 at 11:57 PM

      • Thank you. I had it bobbed, but since I do not blow dry my hair, it does not usually look like that (I just came back from the stylist).

        Yes, actually there’s quite a long list of migraine comobidities, which, forgive me, I’m listing here (my son has suffered from migraines since he was a toddler).

        “The comorbid illnesses in patients with migraine include stroke, sub-clinical vascular brain lesions, coronary heart disease, hypertension, patent foramen ovale, psychiatric diseases (depression, anxiety, bipolar disorder, panic disorder, and suicide), restless legs syndrome, epilepsy and asthma.” (“Comorbidities of Migraine;” Shuu-Jiun Wang, Ping-Kun Chen and Jong-Ling Fuh; Front Neurol. 2010; 1: 16)


        September 5, 2014 at 1:48 PM

      • Oh, thanks for informing me. I suspected a link. Sorry for your son. Is he on medication for them?

        On Fri, Sep 5, 2014 at 1:48 PM, MOONSIDE wrote:


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        September 5, 2014 at 1:52 PM

      • Yes, he takes Elavil since that is the only prophylaxis approved for pediatric use. His psychiatrist is weaning him off the Elavil. I am hoping that he will outgrow the migraines as his father, my husband, has. The women in the family continue to get severe migraines, but my husband experienced less severe migraines once he went through puberty. Our son gets offended when my husband says he has a migraine because my husband’s symptoms are so much less severe than our son’s. When my son was a toddler we thought that his symptoms were of stomach flu until my sister observed a pattern. He gets overwhelmed by social stimuli, actually by many kinds of stimuli. He has come a long way over the years but still feels more pain than anyone should.


        September 5, 2014 at 2:26 PM

      • Oh, I am sorry he suffers so much. I do hope he will outgrow them. Have you tried food-grade ginger oil for the nausea?

        On Fri, Sep 5, 2014 at 2:26 PM, MOONSIDE wrote:


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        September 5, 2014 at 2:46 PM

      • No, we have ginger growing in our back yard and that did not help (the dogs eat it when then need it). He responds best to antiemetics.


        September 5, 2014 at 3:51 PM

      • Yeah, I am on an old antipsychotic that has antiemetic effects, thank God! I hope he will outgrow them.

        On Fri, Sep 5, 2014 at 3:51 PM, MOONSIDE wrote:


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        September 5, 2014 at 4:08 PM

      • Thanks.


        September 5, 2014 at 4:42 PM

  3. Migraine killing every time I had it, but to think or compose a poem while in pain? Wow, that’s amazing.


    September 8, 2014 at 12:31 AM

    • Hi, thank you for writing. Actually the poem was written after. During a migraine pretty unproductive. Sorry you have them, too!


      September 8, 2014 at 9:14 AM

  4. Ellen, you write so poignantly that I can almost feel the pain myself. The only good thing about a headache is how good one feels when it’s gone.

    Blessings and wishes for a pain-free week ~ Wendy ❀


    September 15, 2014 at 4:53 PM

  5. Thank you, Wendy, for your good wishes. Migraines are a trip. More than just a headache. But maybe you know yourself. Anyhow, thank you so much!


    September 16, 2014 at 10:25 AM

    • I get sinus headaches accompanied by nausea and night sweats. Pain medications and I don’t get along so I have to wait it out. Thankfully it rarely happens more than once every few months. It’s the one time I head to bed in the middle of the day. ❀


      September 18, 2014 at 2:34 PM

      • Sounds like no fun at all! Have to head for bed myself but really try not to. Am getting migraines more than 3x a week now. Only allowed to take the meds 2x a week so…


        September 18, 2014 at 3:19 PM

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