Overloaded Circuits

(Computer art by author)

I’m in somnia

with jackhammer brain

a buzzing mind

a humming with emotions

thoughts and pictures

memories of joys

lost to death

spirits close to my heart

seemingly worlds away

guilt, loss and happiness

sickness and death

as well as

breathtaking beauty

a bedfellow with

gnawing worries

and gnashing nerves

fleeting images from films and

music playing at high speed

in the library of my mind

voices of today, yesterday and

fears of tomorrow

vying for an ear

asking me to listen

to them all

all at once

a cacophony of sounds

in the humming silence

of the specter-filled

haunting darkness

with fearsome death dangling

its loathsome threats

before my darting eyes

afraid not for myself

but of losing him

as he lies beside me

breathing noises

breeding worry, sorry

dashing thoughts of love, passion, doubts

a scarily-still lump beside


manic me

finally arising out of

maudlin months

of dismal darkness

and deep, dark despair

when death smelled sweet to me


I get out of bed

to lay my face

upon the windowsill

to gaze at the mystery sky

full of twinkling stars

glittering to the rhythms

of the pulsing universe

my only hope for some

semblance of somnolence

my only chance for peace.

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2 responses

  1. You sound so much like me. But so much more creative.

    Liked by 1 person

    November 1, 2022 at 1:48 AM

  2. Oh, my God, Cindy!! I am so surprised to hear you say that you are like this. I read on your blog that you are a therapist, a psychologist, if I remember correctly. Of course, this is really a stupid thing to say because my husband is a retired psychiatric social worker and his anxiety is, and was, through the roof, though not as bad as mine. And YOU are so creative, with your photos and captions. I have long envied your technological expertise. Every photo is perfect. Mine always have something wrong and I never did get the ratio right before digital. So many good photos were ruined by lack of technical skill. Thank you, Cindy for your comment. I pictured you as so serene and so expert and effective in your posts… and in your life.

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    November 1, 2022 at 4:39 AM

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