Am I caught in a web
like a fly in a drainpipe?

Or is it summer inertia,
The lazy, hazy daze?

Could it be
I have lost it totally
to a pharmaceutical lobotomy?
Or am I processing still
retreat with Mooji?
Anger is more controlled
and that is good
but creativity has taken a vacation and
kidnapped my muse leaving
no urge to make new words or pictures?

Anxiety rules
and love flows
making me bow my head in prayer
and that is good
but what has happened to me?
I do not understand what I read
and have trouble processing
and cannot even comment.
Perhaps I am empty…
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July 17, 2015 | Categories: Abstract Photography, Anxiety, Bipolar Disorder, Depression and Mania, Mooji, Poetry, Spirituality | Tags: Bipolar Depression, Depression, Drain pipes, Lack of creativity, Medication change, Mooji, Silence, Spider Webs | 28 Comments

How higher they be
than me
for they know how
to just Be
always
in the present
in the Silence
so profound in winter
but in the forever now
I look fearfully ahead
towards a future of endings
and losses
of attachments
acquired over the years
none more strong
than our love
I used to know
how to just be
like a tree
spontaneously
when very young
now I seek to Be
as I was in youth
in rapture
not just in nature
but always
as the sheep
in the deep
of winter.
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February 5, 2015 | Categories: Animal & Landscape Photographs, Meditations, Nature Photography, Poetry, Spirituality, Uncategorized | Tags: Animal consciousness, Animal Photographs, Anxiety, Being, Being in the Present, Consciousness, Landscape Photography, Non-duality, Now, Perils of attachment, Presence, Sheep, Silence, Silence in nature, The "Now", Winter | 10 Comments