Notes from a Very Noisy Mind
Presence. Stay in present. Stop projecting into future. Stop the negative daydreams. Worse than nightmares. “What if”, “what if”,”what if” ad infinitum. Put ice yogurt on grocery list. Add potatoes.Is Tom getting a cold? Flowering plant blooming. The “spirit” of mother. Her secret sign. Our doctor appointment soon. Afraid to go. Pandemic fear. Pandemic fear. Pandemic fear. Leak in wall. Will super come? He doesn’t respond. Annoyance. Will they have to bash the wall in to fix? Will they have Covid 19 and bring it into our home? What will happen?? What? What? What?
Untense your back. Feel sensation. Relax body. Deep breath. Fear of losing Tom. Stirrings of a migraine. Can not stand mind anymore. Eckhart Tolle said similar thing. Concentrate on senses. A flower. The sky. Can’t see much sky. Buildings. Screen. Windows. Apartment. Other lives. Other deaths. Look back at the flower. Flower responds to attention. Eckhart Tolle says flower does not know it is pretty. Responds to attention. Have heard this before. Plants feel sensation. Plants have responses to people. Russians researched this. Be like a plant. Feel sensations. Not fears. Thoughts are the enemy. Only for planning. Avoid thought.
Time to meditate. A few seconds of peace. Fight sleep. Fight thought. Just look, don’t fight thoughts. Just observe. Follow the breath. Almost over. Peace for a few seconds after noisy thoughts.
Will I ever be present? I once was. Long ago. Medication fought psychosis but blocked presence. Can I get there again?
MOONSIDE 
Some day the lake will be so smooth again, that you will see your face in it…
I hope you fine as it is possible for you.
Hugs and love, my dear friend Ellen 🙂
Didi
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September 12, 2020 at 12:21 AM
🙂 Yes.
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September 12, 2020 at 7:57 AM
My mind is very noisy in the middle of the night.
Keeps me awake, so I don’t get much sleep.
Tired!
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December 28, 2020 at 9:05 PM
Yes, it is a problem. Meditation helps me. Have you tried?
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December 29, 2020 at 10:12 AM
my mind doesn’t stay in one place long enough. No sure how to meditate.
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December 29, 2020 at 11:21 AM
Hello Ellen ji,
Gone through this post ” The Noisy mind” . Beautifully described the real situation during that period.
Indeed, a difficult time creates noise. But we can overcome. Your suggestions are very realistic and important.
The phrase “Yogas chitta Vritti Nirodha,” drawn from the teachings of yoga philosophy, encapsulates the essence of meditation. Translated as “Yoga is the cessation of the fluctuations of the mind,” it underscores the practice’s power to quiet the incessant chatter of our minds. Through meditation, individuals learn to observe their thoughts without judgement, gradually gaining mastery over the volatile fluctuations of the mind.
In the face of loss, meditation provides a space to grieve and heal. By turning inward, we can find refuge from the external world’s turmoil and connect with a deeper sense of self. The practise cultivates awareness and mindfulness, enabling us to confront challenges with greater resilience and equanimity. As we navigate the uncertainty of life, meditation becomes a lifeline that helps us confront fears, anxieties, and insecurities.
It is an awesome presentation by you. I’ve just gone through it.
Thanks for sharing. Namaste.
Arun
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August 22, 2023 at 4:02 AM
Hi Arun, really? I have done something right? Still struggling with thoughts during meditation. But the Buddhist nun, Pema Chodron, says she struggles with having many thoughts still and she is one of the great meditation teachers in Buddhism. You probably have read about her. Thank you so much for brightening my day. Namaste, Ellen
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August 22, 2023 at 12:05 PM